Kaa-poww!!

Hiya there! <3

I know I've been abandoning you for what-felt-like thousands of lightyears but hey, I'm back! 2012 and I'm still alive..........T.H.A.N.K.G.O.D.

I recently cut my hair kinda short, the current longest lock is about shoulder length-ish so......yeah.

Not that I'm broken-hearted or whatever it is you're wondering. I just feel like being liberated. By having it shorter, I do wonder if maybe some people like mine longer but that's the point:

I don't wanna be so busy trying to be what everyone wants me to be. Not anymore.

I'm gonna be 17 in less than a month so I......I-i-i-i-i I kinda want to declare my independence (yearite. LOL.) This hair says: I'm a big girl and I know what I want, now. I don't care if it's too puffy, doesn't suit me or too 'Pretty in Pink - Molly Ringwald'ish (my current obsession is 80s movie and most of the heroine are short-haired. HA. coincidence much?). Whatever you're saying.....this is my choice and I'm the one bearing the burden of having a wrong/failed/too short haircut. Me.

How I expected it to be:

This.

Or if it goes too short, this.

Or if it gets too puffy, this.

I aim for an EDGY short haircut.

How it turns out to be:

girl next door ftw. nahh. uber-dorky girl next door.

i've just got the longest i've ever been in my lifetime:

Nov 2011

I knoe riteeee I looked horrible in this pic idk what the heck kind of face I was trying to pull off.

I remember snatching someones-idk-whose glasses for this picture.

I admit this is weird but this perfectly portrayed how long my hair was.

From now on, I am a different living creature. Yeah sure, I went to Nippon and stuff but it was when I had more hair.

I'm...............evolving. I hope to a lot better version.

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Picture of the moment:

His name is Kakko-chan. 3 weeks old, they said. I wasn't the one taking this though, Kazuki (6 y.o) took over my digicam and snapped this shot. I like the timing, how he captured the one eye blink.

Movies of the moment:

• The Breakfast Club (1985)
• Dazed and Confused (1993)
• Pretty in Pink (1986)
• Reality Bites (1994)

Track of the moment: Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now - The Smiths

Vaarwel.

I can't write. I'm just too puzzled to arrange any word to type here so these are what I've got in mind:

• I'm going to college
• I'll be living alone.
• I'm majoring the subject I've been dreaming of: Int'l Relations
• I currently have no crush, or at least, nothing to write songs about.
• I didn't get to fly to Italy/US/Neptune this year, but prolly later.
• I dream of joining a NGO after I graduated college, it does things that have something to do with traveling around the globe, sailing away from North pole to South pole.
• I know that I won't earn much bucks from that so I will also be a singer, or write books about what I've been through, preferably fiction though.
• From those money I will retire volunteering in NGO, and will instead invest on: a vintage book&music store, with a coffee shop on front, and a petshop at the backyard.
• I will marry my longtime boyfriend (no particular candidate currently, so please just stay in queue, guys. you'll make it on the list if your lucky :P), he's probably a presidential spokesman, or an attaché in Europe, or maybe he's just successful in his own way.
• Ok, I still can't hardly decide which guitar I should bring with me to my dorm. #random
• I'm moving out T.O.M.O.R.R.O.W like FOR REAL.
• I'll miss times like these, typing peacefully in the serenity of mi casa dulce casa!!!
• I'll miss sleeping next to my two little bratz-sisters
• I'll miss my mom's huggy wuggy and my dad's hilarious laughter.
• I'll miss my super-expert-at-anything my-wishes-is-her-command Mbak Asih.
• I'll miss Kimmy.
• I'll miss all my dear friends here.
• I'LL MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS PLACE.

Well, what else can I say other than bidding everyone adieu?

Goof n8. Schleep t8.

<3 u 4eva rumahku sayang :........)

Fantasy fiction I wrote

Baru menelusuri file-file di folderku jaman SD dan menemukan............

*mission impossible theme plays*

fiksi fantasi karanganku!!!

5 tahun yang lalu!!!

tanggal resmi file-nya 02/06/2006, berarti ini kutulis kira-kira waktu kls 6 SD.

Sketsa Cerita Negeri Pule''

Vania F.I

Jadi nanti Will&Lori jadi King&Queen. Abiz tu ntar orangtua mereka dikasih racun sama penyihir jahat & ortunya membentuk negeri baru yang isinya orang jahat termasuk ortunya. Biz' tu Lori make ilmu sihirnya buat bikin ramuan siap minum untuk menyembuhkan ortunya. Ortunya&mereka bikin kesepakatan, kalo Will&Lori menang, nanti ortunya mau minum obat itu, tapi kalouw ortunya yang menang, Will&Lori yang harus minum ramuan itu. Karena pasukan negeri Pule pada pindah ke negeri Pari JAhat ciptaan ortunya, pasukan Pule-pule cuman Will,Lori dan temen-temen sekolahnya yang baik, karena ramuan penyihir jahat cuman mempan sama orang gede. Nah ntar tu setting perangnya paling keren, Willnya tuh kayak Peter di Narnia waktu perang. Nah ntar tu ceritanya Will nyaris mati gara-gara ditusuk babenya pake tombak truz mledug trus kan si Lori nangis, terus airmata Lori nyembuhin si Will. Nah Will idup lagi terus perang lagi, terus pas saat-saat terakhir kan si Will maw ditusuk emaknya dari belakang, trus dihadang Lori dan akhirnya Lori yang kena, nah di scene itu, dibikinnya lebih dramatis geto, terus Lori sekarat gitu dan Will nanya,

"aPA YANG harus kulakuin buat ngehidupin kamu, Lori? Jangan tinggalin aku! Gimana kita bisa menang tanpa kamu!

Trus kan si Will nyaris nangis gitu, udah compang-camping n the dekil mukanya juga udah penuh tanah, eh ada kayak cahaya gitu, Will nengok ke cahayanya dan ternyata itu tuh malaikat, nah terus dia ngasih satu permintaan buat Will, terserah mau apa aja. Apapun yang dia inginkan. Will sempet kepikir cewek yang dia taksir di skul yang nolak dia tapi ia langsung berpaling ke Lori dan minta Lori hidup lagi. Trus kan Lorinya hidup lagi terus bersinar gitu & terbang, trus kostumnya ganti. Terus scenenya tu kayak Tsubasa Chronicle, yang bagian Li&Sakuranya dua-duanya terbang. Nah nanti bagian itu ditaburin kayak bunga warna pink ato ungu gitu. Keren banget!

Nah terus habis itu Lori bilang,"Will..". "Apa?", Willnya nanya.

"Umm, enggak. Ma-maka-makasssi-ma-ma-maka-hachim", si Lorinya bersin. Terus mereka menuju kastil, tapi yang masih hidup dari semua pasukannya tinggal Will&Lori doang yang lainnya pada matek. Nah terus kan emaknya mereka di kastil cuman duduk+nonton babe&Will yang lagi lawan-lawanan pedang kayak Zorro ato Kendo getoh.

Nah kesempatan itu si Lori masukin ramuannya ke botol semprotan baygon yang dia temuin dan nyemprot ke arah babe&emaknye eh babe &emaknya pingsan terus semua yang kena sihir jahat kemBALI KAYAK doeloe. Tapi ada satu masalah, si Will kesemprot ramuan itu juga padahal kan dia nggak kena sihir jahat. Will setengah sadar masih kebaring di lantai kastil tua yang gelap&dingin.

Eh terus para pembantu Lori narik Lori ke jet bwt dibawa plg pdhal si Lori lagi nangisin Will. Pas itu Lori langsung pingsan, begitu sadar, dia udah ada di kamarnya. Lori langsung nyariin Will. "Will dimana?" tanya Lori ke semua orang yang ditemuinya."Astaga! Will masih di kastil itu, pdhal hari ini kastil itu mau di bakar dan di boM ATOM supaya nggak ada nenek sihirnya lagi.

Nah terus pada brangkat ke sana lagi & ternyata kastil udh dibakar dan kata orang-orang nggak ngeliat ada orang yang keluar, jadi si Will masih di dalem. Nah terus, tiba-tiba ada kayak orang masih pake baju perang compang-camping yang menembus api dari dalam kastil dan ternyata itu Will!! Lori langsung lari meluk Will sambil ngomong "Wiiilll!" keras keras. Terus Will langsung bales meluk Lori dgn tangannya yang luka-luka. Luka bakar, kena piso, dll. Pokoknya bagian yang kebakar itu paling keren & paling susah settingnya. The enddddd.. Misalkan cerita ini betulan dibikin Film, aku bakal seneng banget.

Aku uda ngebayangin dari awal kalouw dibikin film pasti cool abiz~ Dan biayanya juga mahal abiz... Aku mau yang jadi Will itu ya Will Moseley dan Lorinya itu Linds Lohan ato Hil Duff de...tapi kayaknya Lorinyua aku aja! Ntar kalo Lorinya Linds Lohan, Will Mo nya malah naksir Linds lagee..!

You be words and I'll be muse sick.

Hi, so, I skipped blogging yesterday and I just don't feel like doing that 24 days challenge anymore. Ok, ok, I've just posted one but I think it's best to stop before it's too late. I was just reading through all of the 24 days challenges and it is uninspiring, boring, and lack of fun. So........I'm gonna do a challenge I consider a lot more fun than the first one. Here we go.

16 SONGS CHALLENGE

16 songs that express your feelings challenge

1. A song that express what you think is “love”.

Well, I don't really know what love is and I've never been in it, so maybe I just interpret it from what I've seen, and what I've read. I consider it's something so heavenly, so funny like a crunchy humor, so bubbly, immaculately pure, child-like and it brings you high.

This is the song.

I Want To Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

Quoting some lines from 'Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist'

Thom: The Beatles.
Nick: What about them?
Thom: This.
[grabs Nick's hand]
Thom: Look, other bands, they want to make it about sex or pain, but you know, The Beatles, they had it all figured out, okay? "I Want to Hold Your Hand." The first single. It's effing brilliant, right?... That's what everybody wants, Nicky. They don't want a twenty-four-hour hump sesh, they don't want to be married to you for a hundred years. They just want to hold your hand.
[Gay couple passes holding hands and smiles at them]

Yeah, I think I'll most possibly be head over sneakers with one, when I just feel like holding his hands forever, and that would be enough. That's mine, what's yours?

2. A song that represents you (that express how you feel about everything)

Overjoyed

The lyrics are tormentingly beautiful.

3. A song that express your feeling towards school.

4. A song that can be the “soundtrack” of your life.

Oh, this one. I'm on my way writing my own soundtrack of my own life so my goodness my god my love my darling, all you need to do is: wait and listen.

5. A song that can represent how was your first kiss.

Never been kissed, so.............yeah :S

But in my imagination it would be like

or

or

maybe

this

(Well, so I imagined it a lot eh...-,-)

6. A song that you listen when you feel like shit.

7. A song that will describe how you feel about the person you like.

8. A song that will describe how was your childhood.

The first CD my mom purchased me was Britney Spears' Baby One More Time which I recalled I was frequently listening to back in kindergarten years. 100% true. LOL. Yea kinda lame but so what :p

9. A song that makes you happy.

10. A song you listen when you fall in love.

11. A song that you listen when you feel that your world is ending.

12. A song that can describe the way you feel towards “stupid” people / or people you don’t like.

Definitely

Dickhead - Kate Nash

13. A song you will dedicate to someone special.

14. A song that can make you jump around.

15. A song that describes the way you see the world.

Ok, maybe this is a weird way to see the world. But I think this song is real deep, well, despite the singer and the music.

Take a look at the lyrics

Roxanne
you don't have to put on the red light
those days are over
you don't have to sell you body to the night

Roxanne
you don't have to wear that dress tonight
walk the streets for money
you don't care if it's wrong or if it's right

I loved you since I knew you
I wouldn't talk down to you
I have to tell you just how I feel
I won't share you with another boy
I know my mind is made up
so put away your makeup
told you once I won't tell you again

It's like somehow telling you that to survive this life, you don't have to be a bitch, that even if you were a bitch, someone out there will always love you the way you are. So why bother putting on makeups? Why worship the superficial? Well, that's the highlights.

If you taste this version on your audio-tongue or the socalled your pair of ears, maybe the lyrics and the melody would absorb into you deeper......

16. Your favorite song; a song that can makes you feel all the emotion in only those few minutes.

After lightyears of music-storming, dissing, cussing, and blowing bubbles, of hundreds of melodies I favorited in my head, finally I came to this decision:

A song that can makes me feel all the emotion in only those few minutes is

Brian Mcknight - Back At One. Easy listening, easy to sing, easy to relate to, and definitely not an easy choice.

So here we go, my favorite song sung by a skin-headed alien

holiday(astral)project(ion)

Sorry, blog, I know you feel so left out, just the way I feel right now. It's an effin loooooooooo00000ng holiday before my college-1st-year and it just occured to me that I should wake up with something in mind, at least other than channel-surfing ++ couch-potatoing ++ eatsleepread-ing ++rambling aimlessly. I need a project, well ok, not really. Just stuff to keep me from being an absent-minded 16 yo post-highschool-graduate kid, while pouring fresh milk to this cup of empty blog. Why bother, like anybody cares at all. Ha-ha

So this thingie I'm going to do is supposed to last 24 days. I just watched Julie & Julia like literally 5ish mins ago, and well, she did 524 recipes in 365 days, why would this easy peasy 24 days bloggie post become a big deal? I'm gonna get it done, one blagggah at a timeaah. So-kay-do-kay I gotta start..................I guess.

Welcome back, me! Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha

Day 1 - Bestfriend

Ok, how to start with this one? This is one heck of a hard question for folks like me, or.........actually, vice versa. I'm always used to think, like,.......you know, I kinda consider all of my friends are the best ones. When I get attached to people, after chitchatting, spending times, and sharing the same sense of humor, I tend to, like, spill out everything, every single piece of my ingredients. So I'm almost a secret-less person and all of my friends are my best one, they're limited editions! So?

CAN'T HARDLY PICK ONE D000D

Thus, I finally manage to pick from za toothpicks (?)

My decision is: I CHOOSE YOU, POKEMON!!! Wait, no, not pokemon, I picked my long-term knows-me-best bestfriend, since, well, I knew her for my entire (eternally single) lifetime. Any guesses?

Well, in a nutshell:

She's the coolest person ever. She never lets me down. She smiles all the time, even in her sleep. Her optimism is so contagious. She can read my mind. I can never lie to her (Well I can't lie to my other friends either, though-,-). She's expert at everything, from fixing roof-leaks, unclogging the potty, sticking some new wallpapers for my bedroom, being a radio-announcer, managing 'marketing' though she's a law graduate, and.........I don't think I'm gonna get this list done even if I spend my whole life doing this! Hahaha she's too much for words.

Yep, this is the bestfriend I've been talking about. Mom.

I'm so proud of her, and I will most definitely make her so proud she couldn't stop smiling of me.

I know I sound like a boring friendless loser since I ran out of bestfriends to write about, but well, maybe I'm just too lucky to have so many friends that turns out to be the best people in my life. Their aal. Za. Bezzzzt. Lol. Really. It's just the X-factor : They're not Mom. :p

Well it's 11:01 pm. Time to sleep, I guess? ;)

recent soundcheck: the cinematic orchestra-evolution II (feat. fontella bass mr. p remix)

from jazz lounge album

recent literature:molly fox's birthday - deirdre madden

recent on-screen: Julie & Julia, Into the Wild

How Alien Took Your Innocence Away.

Seriously, what on Earth Neptune is wrong with this world?

• People starts acting like money could literally talk, M.O.N.E.Y is, like, er, their beliefs!
• Internet rules the real world, leaving mankind bewitched inside, trapped in the spider cyber web for 24/7 (or maybe 25/8!)
• Most of Y-chromosomed Adams from Mars are drooling over those superficial beauties, with fake fake everything, even, fake personalities.

Really,

If Alien invasion does exist, this is it.

The alien resurrection hides inside those piles of money, the complexity of html codes, and even hides behind those goddess-like (un)naturally beautiful creature.

This is freakin' me out, despite the fact that I'm actually one of them (Yeah, most WOMEN are from VENUS, but, hey, I came from Neptune). Well, I know we'll all die a sinner, but...

I'm afraid that we'll all die a singer, singing a song of deep remorse, down the hell.

Ain't that give you creeps? Or prolly, chill your spines?

I barely could recall the last time I feel humane. I face the screen, go online, almost every single night instead of studying for school like real human highschooler. So yeah, the only alien-factor invading me is internet. (Evidence: 1. I don't really care bout money 2. I'm not so pretty bitty kitty that every human-guy search me online 3. I'm in love with Internet.)

So, folks, do you guys really wanna die with no single trace on this beloved mother Earth? (Answers in unison:) No!!!

So,

IMMORTALIZE THE MOTHER ALIEN IN YOU.

That's all I'm saying. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

MUWA :*

:P

PS: Sorry, for this no-point no-bottomline post. This is the only post I could think of beside blabbering about... you-don't-know-who.

Bonus:

9-12-10 Oldies edition recommended playlist:

1. Complicated Melody - India Arie (00s)

2.Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana (90s)

3. Karma Chameleon - Culture Club (80s)

mewished.

Hello, is this the instant best guyfriend delivery service? Yea, this is Vania calling to order one KUTE, ARTSY, FUNNY, AND QUIRKY best guyfriend with a drop dead gorgeous smile it kills. Finito. Drop immediately to this address: 18th avenue at il mio cuore. And fax the bills to : 628-you-wish. Thanks.

27-10-2010

Sampiski Postki Labilistis Alienistik.

Ini momen paling aneh selama limabelas tahun hidup anehku.

Harusnya aku super duper girang setelah baca surat pengubah takdir ini, tapi ternyata kantong air mataku malah bocor.

Mungkin efek alat pengusir tikus ultrasonik baru yang dipasang Ayah dari kemaren kali ya, otakku jadi sedikit terdistraksi.

Aneh ya kalo ternyata frekuensi yang disesuaikan buat tikus dan nggak ngaruh sama sekali ke semua penghuni rumah, ternyata malah bikin aku nyaris mimisan kayak abis liat Ashton Kutcher.

Serius deh. Kayaknya gelombang otakku mirip kayak tikus, soalnya ultrasonik sial ini bener-bener bikin aku serasa kena sinar laser mata Powerpuff Girls.

Pokoknya, satu, Alhamdulillah, dua, Alhamdulillah, tiga, semoga ini bukan mimpi, empat, semoga sikonnya mendukung supaya aku bisa terbang wuz wuz menuju tempat Logan Lermanku disana.

Maaf meracau. Pikiranku kacau.

PS: Perhatian! Untuk seseorang entah dimana yang mengatakan tata bahasa Anglaisssh ku 'hisap' atau 'sucks': MUAH. Nih. Pake bahasa asing kan aku? Asal tau aja bahasa asliku itu Zombabaloniazeketemilikiti. Jadi, maaf aja kalau Indonesian dan Anglaisssh ku sedikit tak berstruktur.

DAAG!

PSS: VVish Meow Luxxx Yap! Awana flai tu YU ES E. Amen. Hamina.

Effin' Boyfriend? So last century!

I gave up crushing guys. Not that I'm going gay instead or what-,- It's just...I'm morelessly exhausted with troublesleeping all nights, distracted by ones who barely think of me.

Why bother thinking of someone who won't even give a shit?

And honestly, I think it's kind of cheesy. I'm still young, and yeah, foolish. But does that mean I'll be okay 'fooling around' like this? I think there'll be some turn-back point in my life, when I feel a deep remorse for doing so, if I don't stop sooner. Well, thank god for waking me up! I'm about to stop right now. Bye, bye, boycraze-ness! I'm done waiting for..........my knight in shining armor (Kay, lame-..-. I was, back then.)

So galzzz, if you've been such stuck-up hopeless romansick like moi all these times, you'd better start thinking,

'No boyfriend during highschool is DAMN O.K. since no ONE in highschool is GOOD ENOUGH for me.'

Just to remind yourself, Mr.Right is coming your way. But he's just got lost for some unexplainable reason. So, yes, there will be the right timing for him saving you all damsels in distress. Just 'pretend' not waiting, for now :P

By the by, It'd be better for you to notice,

note this:

'STOP FEELING AS THOUGH YO

U NEED A BOYFRIEND,

BECAUSE YOU

DON’T.

SURE, IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE SOMEONE YOU CAN LOVE, BUT EVERY HELLO ENDS WITH A GOODBYE, AND I

T’D BE A WASTE TO SPEND YOUR TEENAGE YEARS CRYING OVER DIFFERENT BOYS WHO YOU PROBABLY WON’T EVEN REMEMBER PROPERLY ONCE YOU’RE

OLDER

.

YOU’RE YOUNG. SPEND YOUR TIME BEING CR

EATIVE, FINDING YOURSELF, LAUGHING, EXPLOR

ING THE WORLD. NOT WORRYING IF YOU’LL BE GOOD ENOUGH TO GET THAT GUY IN YOUR GEOGRAPHY CLASS.'

;)

Picture taken from icanread.tumblr.com

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

Nick met Norah at a gig where he was on stage. Later, Norah got to know him, and so into his musics. But all Nick see is, Tris, his 6 months-post-broke-up-ex, who's also been cheating on him. All of Nick's friends thinks Norah was the Ms. Right for Nick, since they look so cute together. They hated Tris, for the reason she torn Nick into pieces, and had blinded him with foolish fantasy. Yet, still, Nick only cared about how to get a way back into his ex. And left Norah unnoticed.

Tris already had a substitute-man when she met Nick again. But she's so gonna ditch him for Nick. And Nick, still in his memories of his ex, is flying on a rocket to the moon. She forgot about Norah, the girl who shares damn so many things in common with him. She's even the only one who understands his music. But, well, love is blind. Nick was still so intoxicated by his ex.

The story continues happily, when Nick and Norah is getting closer and eventually, they realized that they were falling for each one. They went to 'Where's Fluffly' secret gig, and blah blah blah happy ending thingie.

I just love Nick and Norah too much, and seems like I'm so into this movie. I mean, the storyline, it's so......well, umm, only diary knows.

The other thing is, no matter how much things in common you shared with one, that one won't care unless something wake him from his stupid fantasies and then he'll finally love you, for you. But I guess, for me, it would take gazillion years til that 'one' finally awaken.

But who knows? Who cares? I do. Let us wait for our very own happy ending too ;)

:3